  I struggle with Fibromyalgia and this poem was written during
a week that was very difficult for me. It expresses some of
the frustations chronic pain causes. By sharing this poem I hope
it will help others understand what chronic pain sufferers often
go through. God's love and hope is what gets me through.
He is my strength and I'm keeping my eyes on Him!
My Eyes Are On You
I feel like a prisoner trapped in this life,
Each day that I face is so filled with strife.
My body it aches it feels tired and weak,
Tears fill my eyes as I get sadder each week.
I feel so alone, no one understands me,
I try to explain but the pain they can’t see.
They say that they know what I’m going through,
But I don’t really think that they have a clue.
Each day I make plans to do errands and clean,
I say that I’ll do it; I’m excited and keen.
But it never fails, after working awhile,
My body feels like I’ve ran for a mile.
Nothing gets done; comments are made,
And all those sad feelings I just want to trade.
I try to explain I’m not lazy at all,
It’s just that I’m sore after a trip to the mall.
After a while the guilt sets in me,
And I start to believe that life’s not for me.
I’m angry and bitter most of the time,
Cause all that comes easy is making words rhyme.
I write many poems about all my pain,
I think that it helps me from going insane.
But writing poems doesn’t get my work done,
In fact it may look like I just want to have fun.
But when I'm in pain and I’ve nothing to do,
God uses my poetry to help pull me through.
You see I have faith in my God above,
And I know that He’s full of grace and love.
I don’t deserve Him, I’m so full of sin,
But I know that He’ll free me and cleanse me within.
I know that He loves me; I know that He cares,
And I know that He longs to hear all my prayers.
But my faith has been weak and I don’t seem to care,
I don’t read my Bible and I haven’t said a prayer.
I know that He’s there and He’s waiting for me.
To call out His name when I’m down on my knee.
But I have been stubborn and I’ve lost my way,
Because I’ve been trying to make it my way.
That doesn’t work as I’ve learned once again,
All that happens is I’m filled with more pain.
So I’m turning back to my Jesus once more,
Cause He is the only One who I adore.
I know that He has a purpose for me,
And I know that He will set my heart free.
So Jesus I’m back and I’m calling to You,
Please my dear Lord help me get through.
You know that my body is tired and weak,
And I need Your strength each day of the week.
My eyes are on You and I’m calling Your name,
My faith has been weak and I’m so full of shame.
Please forgive me on those times I couldn’t cope,
For not turning to You and for losing my hope.
I know I’ll get through this with You on my side,
And I know on hard days in Your arms I can hide.
Jesus I know that You're all that I need,
And I'll follow You wherever You lead.
Nancy Burr
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